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Monday, April 30, 2007
Shucks..
Why am i feeling so sianz..
I know i have to study now, but why can't i?
Is it because that i know that tml's free, so i can afford not to study today?
I don't want this kind of attitude.
And i really want to change my attitude my temper.
Ahh!!!
I feel like my wings are being clipped lately..
Parents stopping me from doing anything.
From eating, sleeping, and even talking!!
Cant go out.. Cant do anything, how nice of them? (very?)
Feeling.. sheesh..
AHH!! MIXTURE OF ANGERNESS AND SADNESS..
Okay~
I'm done...
3:17 PM
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Sunday, April 29, 2007
Copyrighted from Pril ^^
当有危难临到我面前
如漫漫长夜无尽无边
何处能寻找到生命光亮
伴我度过每个明天
虽遇仇敌围困我眼前
如滔滔大水漫过胸前
耶和华的膀臂环绕着我
救我脱离死亡的深渊
他擦干我不住的泪水
他抚平我伤心的心田
他是我的力量 我避难所
我要一赞美称颂他万万年
我的过犯他不再纪念
我虽软弱他能力加添
耶和华的膀臂环绕着我
他的慈爱长存到永远
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Translated by Ching ^^
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When troubles come,
Day after day, night after night,
Where can i find the Light of my life,
That accompanies me through my everyday?
Though enemies stood in front of me,
More than the water in the seas,
But Jesus still welcomed me into His embrace,
Where He saved me from the valley of death.
He wiped my tears,
And healed my heart.
He's my strength,
My refuge,
My santuary.
I'll praise you Lord, eternally.
He never remember my mistakes,
And yet He held me when i'm feeling weak.
Jesus welcomed me into His embrace,
His love, is forever, for eternally.
1:10 AM
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Copyrighted from April's blog
荡秋千的时候
他是在背后推动我的那双手
摇摇摆摆奔行天路时
他是指引方向的地图
常在他面前
耍酷 装无
常在头破血流之后
扑倒在他怀中大声哭
眼泪中
看见温柔抚慰我的双手
有钉痕 在掌心
低头
并不是在独自饮泣
只是微笑地想起-
我们在天上的父
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Translation by Ching ^^
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Whenever we're feeling down,
He's always there to push us up again.
Whenever we're wandering around,
He's always there to guide us again.
Whenever things are going our way,
We'd be nonchalant towards Him.
Whenever things hurt us,
We'd run and cry in His embrace.
Seeing His strong arms,
Seeing His warm hands,
Seeing the hole made by the nail at the calvary, at the center of his palms.
Bowing our heads,
Not to hide the tears,
But to smile as we reminiscence,
Our Father in Heaven... ...
12:35 AM
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Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Woa~
Just read about april's blog and you know what, AGREE AGREE about the honouring of parents BUT... ...
I can't deny the fact that i am angry, i am pissed off, cause i'm still a human, i still feel angry. Keeping my cool, no reaction, no expression, one thing i'm proud of, ( though it's not good ), but oh well..
Cause well, i can't like scream at her, i can, but i don't want to, i'm tempted, but i am disciplined not to, but well, this is still not the best solution. Just staying here, not talking, typing blogs, is just ANOTHER of my silent rebellion. Though i don't like this happen, but well, ironically, things that we sometimes do not like, always happen someway or the other.
But well, i know my mum is just standing there, at the wall, in my room, staring at me, but well, me as me, still not grown up yet, still not matured yet, is still pitting myself against her. Well, i'm sitting down, using com, and her standing up, staring at me. I presume i am in a much more comfortable position. And well, now, being a pissed off tennager ( whose mum insulted the things you are willing to scarifice things for, the people that you are willing to spend time with more than friends, the One whom you love so much, etc. etc. ), i couldn't help but feel it that way.. and even REACT that way.
I know that this is childish of me, not talking to my mum who is staring at me. But, they wanna bring up this to another level, but should i? Should i too, bring up to another level with them, and.. THAT would not be good!
12:38 AM
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Friday, April 20, 2007
I just suddenly want to post this, suddenly felt the urgent need to post this, haha~This suddenly came into my mind about the perfect peace that the Prince of peace had given us, the peace that goes beyond our understanding. And when we move in His will, we can feel the peace in our hearts.And i suddenly remembered when i was a young christian, erm, a younger christian. Just got saved, and well, the next week, or the next next week, i didn't went back to church for one time, just one weekend. And cause, i didn't feel like going. But that week, the entire day, i felt very uneasy. At that time, i wasn't planted and wasn't an radical christian, thus i didn't take going to church as a very important thing. And i just skipped a weekend service. But during the entire day, i was feeling very uneasy, just as if something was wrong. I thought to myself, since i wasn't planted in that church, not very committed, and yet why am i feeling this? But now i know, because at that time, when i didn't go to church, it wasn't His will, it isn't in His plans. Thus, i was feeling so weird the entire day. But i think i went back either the next day, or the next weekend, and woots, i started to be committed and would at least come for one weekend service. Then slowly, the CG, PM, and everything. Unless having school, i would always be there. God doesn't want sacrifices, but obedience. I will not rebel against His words, His will. If He wants to me to go this way, i would! Cause, i will follow Him!!
1:39 AM
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Thursday, April 19, 2007
Extract from {The Devil's Door} b
y John Bevere,
There's this on fire youth, aged fourteen, who is called Brad(not his real name), and in his school, in his country, ocult involvement was heavy in local high schools. Several of the young people had received confrontations with classmates involved in it.
"OK, Brad," pastor John said, "Tell me what happened."
He said,"This short kid came up to me in school today and said, 'I'm going to put a curse on you!' When he said that, i just started laughing. I didn't plan it; I just laughed.
"Then this kid got frustrated with me and said, 'I'm going to put a curse on you, and you will die in two days!' I laughed harder.
"He got all upset and began to yell, 'I'll put a curse on you, and you'll die now if you don't stop!' but i laughed even louder.
"Then all of a sudden, we were joined by a much larger, older boy. He shoved the smaller one aside and said, 'Get going.' Then he turned to me and said to me, 'He's new at this. He doesn't know what he is doing.' I stopped laughing and started thinking, What is going on?
" Then this big guy said, *DON'T MISS THIS!!* 'He doesn't realize you're one of those marked ones we can't touch because the God you served is bigger than the god we serve.'
" So i said to the big guy, 'Why don't you give your life to Jesus?'
" He shook his head, 'I can't. I'm in this too far' and walked away" (NO!! He's been deceived. Of course he's not too far. He could have escaped from all those, for there is none too lost for the blood of Jesus! The blood of Jesus had washed away our sins 2ooo years ago, when we accept Him into our lives and if we truly repent, we will be forgived!!)
12:45 AM
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1) Open up~
( Open up? But open up about what? ) [Must seek God more about this, haha~]
2) Don't let the weights ensnares me~
3) Obedient!!
Haha~
This was what i heard from God during the Cg~
And especially during the obedient part~
God doesn't want sacrifices, but obedience!
So, if God wants me to do something, i will do it.
No matter how weird it may seems to be, but i believe it's God's plan!!
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忘不了,忘不了~~~ (Gonna remember this forever, right, april and audrey?!?!)
12:33 AM
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Monday, April 16, 2007
忘不了,忘不了~~还真的忘不了~哈哈!!笑死我了啦~~
9:13 PM
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Saturday, April 14, 2007
Okay..Today was awesome~First, i woke up with a terrible dream, then i didnt went back to sleep. Initially i planned to, but well, i decide to act guai, and STUDY!!Then went for c7 cg. Took cab down with april. Took someone else's cab, down to FTMS building. Met Kian Leng, went up to church. I took like, from the time i met april, got a card from her, started to read, then when i reached church, i haven't even went passed the first line. Then when jocelyn came, i still couldn't get pass the first line. And even when xing jie arrived, ditto, i was still at the first line. April was like.. argh~ Let's go to the toilet and read. But still at that time, i couldn't get pass the first line, laugh too much~ Then when i read it loud, i was like saying Thank you.. .. .. and april said, dun read it aloud, then i would sing, thank You, for the promises you made, for the gift of joy You gave, always, i will sing, Your praise. Finally.. i read the entire card, it was simply AWESOME man!! And at 10.10am, me, jocelyn and april was like.. haha, let's pray. And we prayed for food!!Then c7 cg started, got FOOD!! Ling Jie prepared sandwiches for us, awesome man!! Prayers came true. Then i was like joking, i was saying "God, forgive me for having such a worldly prayer." Then hong hwee was like looking at me, and i go ehh~~~ I was like sitting there, talking while putting together that sandwich, and after like a long long time, then i gave that to seok peng, and i had to do another one myself. Double the time, you can imagine. Then eat, i was like.. happy.. cause i get to eat. I asked april to make another serving for me. She made it even before i finished my first serving, so theortically i have two servings on my hand. Haha, c7 was fun!! Then we went on to introduce ourselves. And from weijie onwards, all of them said that they love food, and when it came to me, it was different, though xing jie said it was a ten year series answer, but oh well~ And then when it went on to april who also said love food, then hong hwee was like saying, why everyone was like saying that they like food except for *points at me* then i said.. haha.. yea, especially so when i'm the only one that's still eating right? Oh well, then it continues.Then Roy came in. We played a game called the electricity. Criss cross hand, then tap tap tap.. haha. I was like made a mistake for two times, heng, one more time, and i'm dead!! Forfeit. Haha.. the two honoured ones that were being forfeited are.. YANGYI and APRIL!! *claps* All except seok peng are from c8 that had made a mistake for two times. Haha.. They had to like.. hold a mouthful of salt water in their mouths and sing great is our God!!Okay.. then praise and worship. Great man. This cg alone.. God had talked so much to me. During the worship.. Haha.. cool man!! Then PROGRESSIVE COMMITMENT. LAY ASIDE ALL MY WEIGHTS MAN!!And.. i'm gonna follow what God has told me. Though i still couldn't open up to leaders.. but if God asked me to, i will!! But Leader of all leaders are also my leader right.. *hopes for that* And a lot of things were said to me by God about me growing. Okay.. i'm gonna seriously lay aside all my weights that is pulling me down, and i wanna soar. I wanna rise up, not only in church, but also.. my charactor itself. Rise up to be more and more Christ-like!! I wanna be able to take all the things that can break me to mould me, to have a stronger faith, to be able to walk with steps of faith!Then eat, buy things, went to meet thea and april at ya zhou.. finally.. haha.. got to know more about audrey... haha.. right?Then went to dhouby mrt to wait for the rest. Okay.. for a long long time, finally, when everyone came, well, ALMOST, we moved on to hoGc.. Go there, 人山人海!!okay... went it there, sit down. Wah.. but stood for 2 hrs plus straight. Though might be okay for most people, but for me.. i cant take it. 腰痠背痛,then 腳也痛~ Wah sianz! But haha.. i can run, i can jump, i'm good man!!On the train, havoc man!!Gerard got bullied? Well.. sorta. His hair got bullied though.. Been a broom cum mop for me and xiao hong.. not bad eh?Haha..Right.. So that's about it. And i haven bathed yet, that's my main point!!
10:58 PM
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Friday, April 13, 2007
好奇怪哦…哈哈~ 好久都沒有誰這麽久了…今天,竟然不知不覺地睡着了!!唉~睡這麽久雖然地確是很滿足啦…可是,浪費掉好多時間…打電話最佳時刻,卻被我睡掉了…唉…
5:33 AM
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Thursday, April 12, 2007
Online yet offline~以前是……Online yet busy~哈哈,明白了吧?所以,既是沒看到我上綫,可以照樣跟我講話,也許,我只是顯示下綫也説不定哦~只要是windows live messenger的都可以即使下綫也能聊天的…所以,哈哈~你們就碰碰運氣吧…況且…我難道發生了什麽事?連我自己都不知道的事?我正在算…今天,有至少六個人問我發生了什麽事…有什麽事嗎?沒有啊…哈哈…依靜仍然還是依靜…笑顔是不會輕易消失的…因爲,我不會應許這種事情發生…哈哈…可是很感謝你的安慰,我會記得的…黑暗?不就是缺少光明嗎?光明?不就是缺少黑暗嗎?沒有看過黑暗又如何會知道光明?沒有見過光明又如何會知道黑暗?
12:13 AM
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Wednesday, April 11, 2007
好想放肆地任性一下哦…龍紋鏊畢竟是龍紋鏊…林依靜畢竟是林依靜…我真的可以嗎?我還可以嗎?
11:35 PM
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Saturday, April 7, 2007
drained and exhaustedBUT WILLING TO FIGHT!!
1:49 AM
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Friday, April 6, 2007
Wah~I so happy lehz~Today's so awesome~Once i start my QT..His presence just came down..Well.. theortically..I was worshipping before i start my QT..Cause.. my heart is not quiet enough..So.. i wanted to worship before doing QT..Then half way through the worshipping.. (I was doing the song, I GIVE.. love that song!!)Then felt His presence so strongly..And then.. did another worship song, CLOSE TO YOU~ love this song too!!Then His presence was there too~All the way, even when praying and reading my bible..During my entire QT~AWESOME!!*filled with joy*Cause.. it was quite some time since i felt His presence SO strongly~I remembered what Pastor Lia prayed for me..Haha.. woots!!Recognize~ This is it~But then.. when i finish my QT~ His presence still was with me, but not as strong.. but i KNOW it's there~
But...
His presence went away when i called Lin Hui~Maybe i did not focus on Him 100%, and thus slowly, i couldnt feel it anymore~But Lin Hui~ Handphone uncontactable, House uncontactable.. sianz~ but why? I know she can fight one, but why isn't she fighting? What is stopping her? What is barring her? Her family? Her friends? Or, herself?Sheesh..Going to call her again..It's quite a couple of days since i had long posts..Haha~I just want to say, Audrey.. you awesome lahz~Did the full day fast le!!Woots..
11:40 AM
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Thursday, April 5, 2007
Girls tend to be more emotional;Guys tend to be more logical...That's why ...THAT'S WHY!!
10:46 PM
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Beaten... but with triumphDefeated... but with successLost... but with victoryTired... but with strengthAll these are possible because i've got FAITH!
12:36 AM
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Tuesday, April 3, 2007
Sick, tired, but worth-it!!Running a fever, but it's not gonna stop me, i just wanna be HOT, be ON FIRE for Him!!
11:02 PM
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Monday, April 2, 2007
Funniest sentence of the day :Is there anyone called Daniel out there?
10:34 PM
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Haha, i recently marvel at the one or one sentence kind of blog, but after writing this sentence, i can't do the one sentence blog, cause, if so, i can only write this sentence, and no point of doing that anyway, so i insist on not stopping this sentence and only using commas, but well, let's try out the one word or line blog~~DOWN BUT UP!!
12:17 AM
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Sunday, April 1, 2007
Wah, today's cool~ Woke up, smsed, rushed out, rush to church, service, fellowship, eat, home~Sounds normal? Sounds simple? Haha, think again, cause there's more than that to it~The first thing i did after i woke up was to hunt around for my phone only to find it at my bedtop.. (>_<") Then, started to smsed~ Morning smses, asking them things.. Then, after finishing, close to fully wake up le, then well, go wash up, then come back to my room, and continue smsing~ After that, quickly go and bathe, then chiong out le~Reach church for cafe training.. Okay, ended close to 2pm.. During some time during the training, suddenly there was a black out, but after a few minutes, it was repaired~ Then when food came, it was about the time we need to go into the audi~ But before that, when weimin brought in food, then when i saw weijie's new hairstyle, i was literally shocked, and haha, i was caught by gerard looking shocked. I looked at him, and he started laughing and said he understood. I guess as much~ During service, I was sitting at the front row, which was cool~ Second time, can really jump around, but bad thing~ MY BAG~ Didn't put properly, step on it quite a couple of times~ And was a really nice worship song~~ And was sitting next the Cynthia Chan~ Haha, she was awesome, gave me food and things out of her own, though it was great, but haha, well~ ahem.. I really thanked her for that~And the word of God that was being preached today was awesome~ the refusals~ The refusal of being ignored, the refusal of being left out, the refusal of being offended. Apart from that, another taught was being teachable and everything. The two points that impacted me the most was actually the point of the offense and being teachable. Well, i still get offended, but i've learnt to get over it FAST~ I mean, i still can't deny this fact. I'm still human, and i still will get offended. But even so, i would have to learn how to get over it, and well, not to be easily offended. And the point on being teachable~ Cause i was being discipled today about my planning of time and punctuality~ And erm, the discipleship is not the gentle one, but i know not only in my heart, but also in my mind, in my soul, in my everything that discipling is to help me grow better and have a better character~ And well, when the sermon is talking about teachability, it just brought my mind over there~ And haha... ... Also, being teachable and receptive is different. Teachable is listen and change, receptive is listen and do~ And now, i'm so tempted to touch Alton's hair~ Cause quite cool~ And his was the only one i dared to touch anyway~ And he seems to accept the fact that everyone's touching his hair~ And when was Alton being called almond? today by joce? haha, yea~Ahh~ Well, she didn't come today. Wah~~ Nvm, there's still tml, there's still gd friday, easter~ She would be free by this thurs night, ahaha~ But still, i would have faith in her. She changed from being not on fire to be on fire~ Willing to run away from geog and will direct chiong down from speech day. Roderick and i was amazed by her~ She roxs!But another thing. Not happy~ out of 11 people, only 3(including me), got bring~ And the template still not with me. I want to do this really well~ But~~And haha, it's not that i don't want to update. But it's just that i would come here when i have the time~ Heh heh~MUST PLAN TIME~BUILD A STRONGER ALTARHAVE A STRONGER SPIRITUAL WALKSPEND MORE TIME IN GOD
1:22 AM
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